Maria’s quest for a healthier body!

Has it really been nearly 2 months since I’ve logged onto buddyslim???? I can’t believe that and I am so sorry!!! So much has happened and I’m afraid I haven’t had time to log on. Well, that is not 100% the truth because I have also let my weightloss slip so maybe hiding from you guys is hiding the problem??? who knows, not going to try and analyse myself just now!

So me, I think the last time I posted was my birthday at the end of July! Had a great time, that led to a month long binge of partying drinking and eating!!! Moved home to my parents house and have been working in my mums shop for the past month. It has been great being back home and catching up with old school friends. I can honestly say I have never been so content in my life. I am not stressed. I am not worried. I am genuinely happy. wow. i never thought I could say that!

So my plan was to move to London, well, now. lol! maybe even a few weeks ago! But now I appear to be giving my life a shakeup and am very very nearly booking a 4 month camping trip in Africa! lol! i know! trip of a lifetime. I’d be going on my own but joining a tour group for the whole thing, and im sure the other 20 people on the trip would be like minded and interesting so the 4 months would fly by!! So i have till monday to decide on this and if I do then I will be gone mid Oct to mid Feb next year!! Cant believe I am going to do this. Then again, I actually can. I have always been the adventurous type and have often let my own self esteem hold me back. Well, no longer!

On the weight loss thing??? hmmm!!! I got to a low of 189lbs! wow! lol……I am now at about 196 or so. Which isn’t any big surprise as I have been eating well and slacking on the exercise! But recently I am back into it a little, trying to get walks in and trying to eat healthily again. I would like to be a little smaller before I head off travelling: just to be more comfortable in the heat and to be more able to participate in activities. Although my fitness level is still pretty good.

But you know what? I am not going to stress. Losing the weight that I have done in the past year (around 30lbs) may seem like a small number but it has completely changed things for me. I have confidence and I am happy. I dont automatically write myself off because I am overweight and I dont automatically think that other people do the same. I am having a lot of fun in life at the moment and hope that it continues. One friend (that has known me since I was 17) recently commented that she had never seen me so relaxed and content, ever. She says i just seem happy now. And I am. Sorry if Im gushing. I just want to tell people that being skinny isnt everything. Getting down to a tiny size is not the be all and end all. Being happy with yourself is the most worthwhile thing you can ever do. Yes, it would have been great if I could have felt this way at 225lbs. But I didnt and I know I had to lose some weight to change my mindset. Dont get me wrong, I know I could do with losing more weight. But not now.

So for anyone just starting out? Stick with it, I have not lost the greatest amount of weight ever and what I have lost took me a year. But it has been worth it.

Everyone who sent me boosters and their thoughts….thank you!!! I really appreciate them. I think of buddyslim and the friends I’ve made on here often and I wish everyone every success in everything they. It’s not goodbye from me and hopefully I can get on again soon but if I can’t then keep at it.

Be happy