Maria’s quest for a healthier body!

well, just an update from an exhasuted Maria. Sometimes I think I’m too old to party this much and sometimes I think it’s just WAY too much fun to stop! LOL! I am 25 now and maybe I need to grow up, lol, don’t think so, not just yet!

So went out Thursday night with friends, had lots of fun and danced lots. Friday I was tired as I went to bed 7am that morning. Had a little nap in afternoon and then met a friend off the bus at 7pm. I was really tired and didn’t want to drink or go out, but she convinced me, lol! hadn’t seen her in ages and our nights out are always lots of fun! We did have to leave the pub at 1.30am though because I was pretty much falling asleep. Trying to dance when you can’t keep your eyes open is pretty tough!!

So Saturday morning we were up at 8am, got a bus then a ferry to an island off the coast. Needless to say I did NOT feel well on the ferry and it was a rough crossing. It was touch and go but I made it without vomiting, lol! So there was 10 of us out there camping. It was good fun, a little drama which got to me, but not going to go into it here. it’s not important. We drank lots, got back to our tents at 2am, lit a campfire and sat at that till 6am! Went and sat on the beach watching sunrise, sea is beautiful at that time! Went to bed at 7am……

Sunday I walked for an hour or two around the island. Not too fast but at least it was some exericse! Was really pretty. It was raining and we were sheltering in out leaking tent and getting col….so we went to a bar at 3pm. Warmer than our tent anyway! So we drank too much, again, surprise surprise! I have never laughed so much. It was just me and one of my friends and every time we went outside for a cigarette there were these guys there. They were on a stag party (bachelor party i think?) and they were hilarious. Me and my friend kinda became honorary members of the group because we were just laughing and singing along with them for the whole day.

One of the guys kept saying really nice things to me, but I just laughed them off. He was persistant though, told me he thought I looked GREAT! ha ha! I, of course, tried to just laugh it off and then when he actually convinced he was serious I told him I wouldn’t kiss him because he was on a stag party and I’m sorry but that is just a bit cliche and he probably had a girlfriend at home! But anyway, he didn’t and we got talking and got on well. Ended up kissing him outside the bar for a few mins, it was just so funny. I felt like I was 15 again and having a sneaky kiss around the corner of the bar so my friends couldn’t see!

Anyway, him and his friends came back to our campsite for another campfire. It was raining and SO cold and then a policeman came and told us we had to put out the fire or we would be fined up to €2000. ooops. we promptly did what we were told and called it a night.Me and this guy said goodbye and they all went home to where they were saying. It was never anything thatwas going to lead to anything serious and we did just kiss for a few minutes. But it was just funny. A guy telling me I looked good and actually convincing me! It was hilarious and actually gave me some serious confidence!! Once I knew he meant what he said, I got really confident in myself. That is the best thing that came out of the situation for me.

So eating was TERRIBLE. I mean absolutely awful. I probably ate enough for 5 people all weekend! ha ha! Anyway, I am feeling I am losing control on the eating battle and it’s not just letting myself be carefree and eat whatever I want. But it’s getting to just not being able to stop eating. So I must regain some control. Yes I want to be carefree about it for a while but do NOT want to put on weight. So I need balance.

I am exhausted now: got home at 10am this morning to my apartment: slept 11am to 7pm, ha ha! Shows you how much I partied this last few days! Not able for it anymore, but I suppose it is my choice and if thats what I find fun then why not. I am not hurting anyone, I just like dancing and laughing! I have to pack up and clean my whole apartment tomorrow. Going to try and get alot done tonight as well, no idea how I am going to get it all done!

So I will try and catch up with blogs and I am making a promise to myself that I will have a healthy eating day tomorrow. I will also get exercise in. Need to reign myself in for a few days, because I am having another party weekend next weekend. Ooops. Going to be fun though! Hopefully I won’t go quite so crazy on the eating this time.

Hope everyone is well and I will try and do some blog reading and commenting.