Maria’s quest for a healthier body!

First off, my condolences to Nicole on the death of her mother. I left her a message earlier.

I am feeling a little embarassed about my blog earlier. I think I was just a little frustrated. I was feeling out of control and unmotivated and wasn’t sure how I could do it. But today I have done a few things that have gotten me back in control. I spend an hour or so tidying and clearing out clothes. Trying on things that are too big that fit recently: well that reinforced how far I have come. I also took some photos of myself, studied them carefully. Trying to get my head to take in the difference my weight loss has brought!

I cooked today instead of just snacking: made a kind of casserole with lots of veg, some sweet potato and some mixed beans (chick peas and another type I can’t remember!). It was good. I have to remember to always cook healthy food. I enjoy doing it and it tastes better than snacking on crackers!

I drove out and picked up a friend at her house and went for a drive! We went to a village by the sea and had an ice cream (a starburst sorbet type thing 100 cals!). we were only away for an hour and a half but it was good to chat and plan our weekend away for my birthday in 2 weeks! We are going camping on an island off the coast, should be a group of 10-15 of us so will be lots of fun, and planning on renting bikes and cycling for a few hours too, can’t wait!!! Anyway, it was nice to hang out and relax. Went shopping then and bought some new underwear (always cheers me up, lol!) and some fish and healthy groceries.

So I have written down everything I have eaten today. Haven’t added calories but just writing it down is a start! Have taken Tiffanys advice and written down a menu for tomorrow. When I am in control of my choices I just write things down after I eat them but it seems at the minute I need to be stricter with myself so I’ll see how the menu goes tomorrow!

So that is today. I had a nice day off. I thought about my blog when I was out and wa embarassed about my complaining. I honestly didn’t do it looking for sympathy or anything, just wanted to get my own frustrations out. Was going to delete it but thought I would leave it there, let myself look back at it and give me a kick up the backside!!

So I am waiting for the parade to start in half an hour, plan on standing out on my balcony to watch it pass. Should be fun. Was going to have a drink but don’t think I will. Meeting a few friends wednesday night for a few drinks for my leaving so i’ll wait till then. Get back in control for a day or 2 first.

Thanks everyone for all your advice. I plan on getting a good night’s sleep and having a lie in tomorrow morning, first morning in over a week I don’t have to be up early (start work at 4pm tomorrow)  so am going to enjoy not setting an alarm. Knowing me I will probably wake at 8am anyway!

So tomorrow will be a good day I hope. I did this last week and the week before. I am not sure what came over me these last few days but new day new week and positive attitude. I have done so well and am more than half way there so I just need to keep going. Imagine how proud I would be of myself if I achieve that. Just have to keep that thought in mind.

“If you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it.”
William Arthur Ward