Maria’s quest for a healthier body!

ok, quick blog as I am on dial up internet and it is SO slow!!! So, I upped my calories to 1700/1800 this last few days and I weighed in at 193 today, I am so happy!! Down 3 more pounds, total 32 pounds lost!!! My body obviously needed some more fuel!

So I am off for the weekend, the beer has been bought and I am heading to a festival for a few days! I will try not to go overboard too much, but I probably will, this 3 pound loss has really motivated me though as I wasn’t able to move the scale in so long! Went for a jog last night, went for a long walk this morning and cleaned my car inside and out so plenty of exercise!! I am home in my parents house at the moment and I had forgotten how much I miss the country, and being where I grew up  and chatting to the neighbours and having friends call over to visit. I must remember to do it more often. I got lots of compliments from the neighbours telling I look great which is always nice to hear!!! I am also stress free for the first time in a long long time and that is the best thing of all….I am looking forward to a really fun weekend with my friends and did i mention that THE SUN IS SHINING!!! woo! and for our long weekend too, lol! It doesn’t get too sunny very often in Ireland so when it does everyone is so much happier! It is so so nice out!

Ok, so hope everyone is doing well, no time to read any blogs and the slow internet wouldn’t let me even I had! So I won’t be back online for probably another week but I will do my best to catch up then! Stay on track everyone, we CAN do this, and you know what? Achieving these goals makes us not only look better but feel so much better too! Yay, I am happy today

Time for Maria’s weekly off the rails blog I think, lol! Well it was a good weekend, and not one that I should be too proud of, but that’s life! I ate really well on Saturday, and didn’t allow for any drink calories as I didn’t think I was going out, well, eh, I was wrong. Suffice to say there was lots of wine, must too much wine! I stayed out till, eh, maybe 6am? 7am? It was bright out anyway, lol! I wasn’t being that crazy a party animal and there was a reason I stayed out that late: There was a boat race coming into town! The Volvo Ocean Race which is a round the world boat race, which some of you may have heard of. I knew nothing about it untill it was coming to my city. Its last stop was in Boston I think, and they arrived here starting at 3am Sat night/Sun morning. I live on the docks and it is a small city so everyone left the pubs and clubs when they closed at 2/3am and continued the party on the docks! It was so bizarre but lots of fun, the Irish boat was in second position and came in around 4am…I can’t remember who was next. There were thousands of people out and the crew of all the boats were coming up on stage and shaking bottles of champagne around, there was a great atmosphere, considering it was way past everyone’s bedtime!! So needless to say I slept most of yesterday. Didn’t eat TOO badly, hangover carbs….mmmmm.

Went out again last night but no alcohol, too tired! The official opening ceremony for the race was on last night (there is a fesitval for the next 2 weeks for it, with free outdoor concerts everynight, all happening beside my house, so I can hear it all without having to leave, lol!). So we went up to the top floor of my building, 5 or 6 floors, up to the carpark on the roof and watched from there, it was really cool, had a great view looking down on the docks and the stage and everything. Lots of fun, was home exhausted in bed by 1am though! So today I am still pretty tired (that’s what you get from too much partying!!) and was in work for a few hours and have had a LAZY evening. Planned on jogging but I didn’t, bad of me! But I will go tomorrow (last jog was Sat so I’m not taking too long of a break!).

Eating was good today, I think I let myself get too hungry cause I was too busy at work and then was feeling a little ill for a while. Could be the tiredness though!Finished the day on 1645 which I am happy with. Didn’t drink enough water though, bad…must do better! Went grocery shopping and stocked up on fresh veggies so have the ingredients for meals the week. Tried butternut squash today (I’m not sure if you guys in the US call it something over there?!) and I did NOT like it. Was sure I would because I love most veg and love sweet potato so thought it’d be similar. I found the taste strange, maybe i’l look up some recipes because I don’t want to throw it out, I only bought it cause it was half price!

I am feeling good about things at the minute, body wise that has. Have lots of work/unemployment stress that I don’t even want to deal with right now! But I feel much more confident. I was dressed up to go out and I felt good, and I think I looked good, so in turn I was much more confident!! I am happy about this. I am sure it is the exercise that is helping with this! I put on a pair of black jeans today (uk 16/us 12-14 I think) and they were just falling off. I had a belt on them and went to work, I looked in the mirror when I got home and they looked terrible!! so baggy and shapeless. So I will wash them and drop them in the charity shop. Dropped 2 bags of clothes in the other day, things that had gotten too big or just didn’t fit well. Things I had been holding on to till I lost weight and then realising they do nothing for my figure even though they fit! I am learning what suits my shape, yay!!

It seems that a week doesn’t go by without some drama here on buddyslim. I logged on really early yesterday and saw those blogs I think before anyone else (there were no comments on any of them) and I though “here we go”….it is childish and petty. I am not getting involved and never do, but surely we all have so many stresses in our lives that creating more drama online is a ridiculous things to do? I think some people reacted very harshly and I must commend Nancy on not fighting back. It takes a much braver and stronger person to walk away from an argument than it does to start one. I got the point that was trying to be made. I understood what the argument was, it just didn’t need to be approached in such a stupid way. And as everyone states, you do get out of buddyslim what you put in. You want support? then give support. That’s what life is like. You don’t like what people have to say? Then don’t read their blogs. People are doing what they feel works for them, if it doesn’t work for you? Do something different. I just wish that this drama didn’t show itself on here, I know it does, it has and it will probably continue too. But I suppose we can all just keep doing what we’re doing and going for our goals.

Have a good week everyone…I am going to have a good sleep tonight and plan on having GOOD days both eating and exercising! I miss swimming, I might go some evening this week! Then on Friday I am off to another festival, it is our long weekend and the weather is meant to be great! So hopefully I don’t go off the rails completely….but then again, I always do and only have myself to blame, but you know what? life is for living! it is for having fun, and I am in a position that I am lucky enough to be able to have fun and have little stopping me, so that is what I am going to do. I will get a balance between healthy eating and living life to the max, it is too short to spend it worrying

ok, I have been doing some research online this evening to try and determine if I am eating enough calories! I currently aim for 1500/1600 calories per day. (When I am eating to plan on not off the rails, lol!). But I have not upped this at all since I have started doing regular exercise.

So I have looked at 3 different online calorie counters and I think I may not be eating enough, really?!? I’m never sure what to pick when they ask of activity level, my job CAN be active and I never just sit down ALL day. And I am now jogging for 30 mins 4 times per week.

So about.com tells me that to maintain my weight I should be eating 2276 cals per day or 2450 cals per day IF I exercised for 30mins every day and I would lose weight at a rate of 1lb per week. seems very high!! So if I took the maintain weight of 2276 minus 500 it’s be 1776.

The Mayo Clinic website they told me that I should eat 2250 per day (If I choose somewhat active) and 2450 per day (If I choose active) and I think is to maintain my weight. So I know going under by 500 per day leads to a pound weight loss? I think! So this would be 1750 or 1950 cals!

The New York Times (the sites you find when you google, lol!!) health section tells me that by choosing moderate activity “you rarely sit during the day OR you exercise regularly” I should eat 1869 cals per day to lose 1.5lbs per week and be at my goal of 180 by August 5th!

Ok, so they all seem a little different so an average of the 3  is 1865. So there you go, anyone got any advice on this? If this is right then I am under eating by 300 cals per day! Should I up them?? aaahhh! it is scary, but the scale is not moving at the moment anyway, so what have I got to lose, only lbs! I don’t want to go up though. And I think on this if I had 1 or 2 high calorie days per week (maybe a few alcoholic drinks!! thanks for the tip Becky!) then it would keep my metabolism guessing!

What to do, what to do!! I think the 29pounds I have already lost is just being maintained now and I am not ready to stop yet! I want to get to 180lbs. I also have quite a healthy diet (again, when on track!) and quite a lot of my cals come from fruit and veggies. For example: today: 450 cals from fruit and veg. Yesterday: 275 cals from fruit and veg. Wed: 300. I just remember from weight watchers that you dont count cals from veg and for fruits it is quite low, meaning it can never be bad for you!

Any advice would be appreciated! thanks

Well, I am still working hard. Still jogging and have amazed myself by the fact that I am sticking to it. I never ever ever thought that a) I could jog, b) I would enjoy jogging and c) that I would stick with it! So this is definitely something I am proud of!

I am following a jogging plan and looked back at it today. I did my first jog on 12th April and did 3×3mins jog with 3×5 mins walking, total 24 mins. And I will admit that I thought this would kill me, I found it SO hard!!! I did 3600 steps on my pedometer on this. So today I am onto week 5 of the plan and I did 3×8mins jog with 3×2mins walk, total 30 mins! and did 5600 steps! Today was also my 16th jog! I have come so far! I did 9mins jogging that first day and 24mins today! and am doing an extra 2000 steps!

For me to stick with this, well it just amazes me! and i have been telling pretty much anyone who’ll listen, lol, that I jog. Most people don’t care, but I’ll keep telling them anyway!!

Food is going ok these days too, am happy with my intake. My real downfall is alcohol. Beer and wine to be precise. It is a waste of calories, and let’s face it after a full days eating there usually isn’t extra calories left for alcohol but I drink them anyway. Not every day or anything, don’t worry!! I struggle with giving up alcohol. Not because I depend on it but because my social life revolves around it, pathetic i know! But I am 24, young, free and single (ha ha, my outlook has changed since a few days ago, lol) and all my friends and I love going to gigs, going out and going dancing and it seems that we always drink as part of those things. Now I could not drink on these occasions, there is no peer pressure to drink, if I said I wasn’t drinking no one would care, but it has to come from me and I still enjoy drinking and having fun because of it. I know this is a bad attitude to have but I am being honest! I have been drinking alcohol for 10 years now (yes, I started at 14/15) and my reasons have changed completely. I drank before on nights out to escape, to be something of someone different. I had no self esteem, no self confidence and was unable to talk to people so I thought alcohol would solve it, which led to binge drinking. And I can look back now and it makes me sad that I did this instead of working on having some confidence. I am still not there 100%, I still feel a little self conscious around people I don’t know and come across very shy or rude maybe as I’ve little to say? who knows how people view me, i think the worst, but i suppose i don’t know. So i still feel a little more comfortable with a drink. Now I drink WAY less these days, less often and less alcohol. But I think it still stops me from losing weight. I wish I could say I want to give it up but I am torn between living life and having fun  drinking and not drinking and getting healthy. I know which one I SHOULD choose. But we don’t always do what we are supposed to, do we?!

So this leads to my scale rant, lol! I KNOW I challenged myself to stay off it, but I have failed, lol! I have been having a look maybe once a week (which lets face it is better than twice a day!) and I am not moving!! constant 196lbs. I know I have more weight to lose, My stomach is still too big and it’s unhealthy to carry extra weight there! I don’t want to get down to 140 or anything like that, but even to get to 180 I think I would be happy! I am toning up ALOT from the jogging so maybe this is stopping the lbs coming off? Or maybe it is the fact I tend to go off the rails a little too often? I forget that this weight loss takes hard work! I don’t know! I know I shouldn’t care about the scale, but I would love to drop another few pounds!!

Anyway, will keep on, at 955cals today and it’s 3pm, off to work in a little while and then will eat anoter 5/600 for dinner when I get back!

Hope everyone is having a great day

Haven’t got to read too many blogs this last few days, will try to catch up later. All going well, that ‘mood’ from the other day seems to have lifted and I’m back on form. I’m going to note the date in my diary and maybe see this time next month and see if that’s maybe what makes me feel lower? If I was expecting it it might be easier to handle.

But anyway, had my interview for unemployment assistance today. and I think I am being approved, I’m not really sure! and the woman didn’t tell me when I’d be getting money but I think she said I would?? hmmm….not sure! Anyway, it is casual unemployment benefit so I can still work up to 3 days per week and get some payment (I’m not sure how much it is! a full week is €200 so maybe half that if i work 3 days?). So if I work more than that I wont get a payment that week. Which is great, and of course I would take the work if I am offered it, it pays ALOT better than the 200 per week! So we’ll see how it goes.. I have some hours coming up in July…but untill then I think it might be quiet. I’ll keep my hopes up!

So the sun is shining here and it is a beautiful day. I went for my jog last night after work as I said I would, lol! No excuses, didn’t even give myself time to think about! It was great, I pushed myself pretty hard! My jogging intervals this past week were 5 mins, and my plan now says for week 5 i have to do 8 minute intervals! wow. so that is what i am going to try today! I will let you know if I make it! I am sore today (but good sore!) on my arms and my stomach: I did some sit ups and push ups (girly wall ones, sorry Nancy , lol!) yesterday and they nearly killed me!! I used to do SO may sit ups a day (years ago!) but doing 30 yesterday eas TOUGH! But I will keep at it! I also got a yoga book out from the library today, I have never done yoga but I might try do some later!

Hope everyone is well, as I say, the sun is shining so I am going to get out and about! I will read some blogs to night! Take care everyone

Ok, quick blog, just want to say thank you for everyones responses to yesterdays blog. You really don’t know how much it means to be able to log in this morning and see all that support. I really really appreciate. Knowing I’m not alone with those moods, well, that really does help.

Thanks for all your advice. I think it was a combination of things, of stress being one too. So I will take that on board. As for going to the doctor about this? well I have thought about it countless times over the years, and I really am not sure why I haven’t? Maybe I’m too stubborn? Maybe I think I can sort it myself? I don’t know. But I definitely will think about it more. And I know I won’t let it go too far, I can blog here, I can talk to my friends and having that support, well it’s enough for me at the moment.

So, well I feel great today, lol! Talk about moodswings! I went out last night with a friend to a gig, had a few beers and just danced ALL night!! It was lots of fun. Our friend took SO may pictures, we were all sweaty and dancing and I know he will be putting them on facebook soon and I have already told him that I will be making him take half of them down!! lol. It was a fun night. I think alot of my problem is being lonely as nearly all of my friends live in different cities and it just gets to me at times. But I had great fun last night and am only going to live in this city another 2 and a half months so I plan on enjoying my summer here. With what money I plan to enjoy it with? well I’m not sure! lol!

Thanks again, have a good day everyone

Oh, and I have woken up with a slight hangover so will not get a jog in before work (at 3pm lol) but i WILL go after, it is bright till after 9pm, no excuse! you have my word on that!!

I’m not quite sure what is up with me at the moment, I spent most of last night and this morning crying. And seem to well up for no reason. I am going through so much stuff at the moment and my head just feels like it can’t cope some times. I know that I am over emotional at the minute because of the joys of being of woman! lol, but I think that cannot be the excuse for the way I’ve been feeling lately.

I get into these moods, or head spaces, or well i have no idea what to call them. Basically I get to feeling incredibly low and feeling frustrated with every little thing about life. I used to feel this way alot of the time when I was a teenager, I didn’t cope with things very well back then. But over this last year and since I’ve started losing weight these times have been much much more seldom. Maybe every 2-3 months. I suppose I should be happy that I am so much more optimistic and happy with life, but then when these moods come they scare me that little bit more because I’m not sure what to do. I have changed so much, I am infinitely happier than I used to be and I have started talking about my feelings. This is such a huge huge step for me and I must admit that I think blogging here on buddyslim has been a big part of that. I spoke to one friend last night and another today and basically broke down on both of them and cried and cried and told them how bad I felt and, you know, it is good to talk. They both appreciated my honesty and they have both felt the same so they do not judge me for it. Learning how to talk to them about this , well I think it will keep me right!

So I’m not too sure what even has me so frustrated at the moment but many things in life aren’t going right. Like everyone else in this country (and the world at the moment) the economy sucks and I am pretty much out of work except for a few hours every week, it’s happened so fast, so 3 hours in the social welfare office trying to claim unemployment assistance today didn’t really help. Also the MOUNTAIN of paperwork I have to fill out and I may not even be eligible for any help I will hope for the best though, it’ll be at least a month before I know. But I know SO many others are in this situation so I should just take it and deal with it like everyone else.

Also, my love life, or lack thereof has been getting to me lately. Both my best friends have started going out with new guys recently, guys that I know and they are great and I am so happy for my friends, but it does make me think about my own situation and realise I am still alone. Also I am having trouble sleeping because I am stressed, and am doing little all day except my jog and my internetting! so am not tired enough, so the other night at 3am I decided to read through some old diaries (bad idea!! lol). I found love letters from my ex boyfriend that I hadn’t looked at in a year or 2. wow, they made me feel LONELY. They also made me realise that he was crazy about me, and no one before or since has felt anything remotely like that for me. Which is a little depressing to say the least. I don’t miss him at all (we were not suited to eachother) but I miss the companionship and having a guy to share things with. I am just fed up with guys thinking that they can treat me with no respect. I am not a bad person (realising this was a big turning point for me, lol!) and I am fed up with being treated like I am. So thats me, bitter and cynical at the ripe old age of 24, lol! surely I should still have that youthful optimism?! I’m not sure I ever did! Don’t get me wrong I am not looking for or am in no way ready for settling down to marriage and babies, I’m not sure that is something I will ever be ready for!! but I would even like a guy to show an interest, to go on dates, to want to spend time with me. Anyway, I know it happens when you least expect it and this is not a rant for sympathy, honestly! But it’s just been getting to me, that’s all……

So I am trying my best to concentrate on the future, to moving countries and getting a new job and living with my friends and I hope it all works out because I think I need a change. There is this doubt in the back of my head that I am just running from something and that I will still feel the same no matter where I am, but I have to just deal with this if it happens.

Considering how low I have been feeling recently my eating, while not perfect (when has it ever been? is there any such thing?) has been pretty good. Nothing TOO over the top. I’ve developed a love of jogging which can only be good for me!! So these are two definite positives. Two negatives is that I am having a beer, I know it won’t help but it IS coors light, lol and I am going to a gig with some friends.  Second negative? smoking….yes I was just SO damn stressed earlier I needed one (3). So I had one (4). lol. not healthy, but it helped.

So, sorry for the downer…I don’t always write blogs when I am down as I don’t want to tell everyone how I’m feeling but today I think I had to. and my friends convinced me that talking is best so here I am. I knew this of course, I do some  (untrained) counselling with some clients and always tell them just to talk about their problems. It helps. If only I practiced what I preached!! I am getting better, I’m learning, I’ll get there!

Hope everyone is well, sorry for the complaining and the long long blog. But I think for every 4 downers I managed half an upbeat sentence, so thats something, right? lol

Take care

Just met some schoolfriends for lunch and although I didn’t make the healthiest choice, it was great! I had a goats cheese salad with sundried tomatoes, sunflower seeds and balsamic dressing….mmmmmm it was really nice! Very high in calories, oh well! it was good!

Went for my jog this morning. It was great! I really am starting to love it! The park I usually jog in was closed and it is completely flat terrain. So I went to another park which has quite a few little inclines and was running through the forest for some of it which was cool, but hard work! It was raining which kept me feeling a little cooler!! but also it meant the forest was MUDDY and I got covered, lol!! I also usually choose the other park because it is empty and don’t want people to see me run but today this park was really busy, walkers, joggers, dog walkers, football matches, everything! and to be honest, I didn’t care, I was just happy to be out jogging! and i have noticed that other joggers seem to motivate eachother, just the looks and the hello’s everytime you pass eachother! it is cool. Anyway, tomorrow is rest day from jogging, I plan on doing some yoga or stretches or something so I am doing some form of exercise everyday (thanks Samantha!!).

One of my friends I met for dinner is really obese, I mean she has gotten so so big. We were a similar size when we were in school but everytime I see her she seems bigger. I worry for her health but she is happy. Genuinely, she is happy with who she is, she is lazy and says it herself, and she cannot do any exercise. But she is happy with her life, she has a new boyfriend who sounds lovely, a job she likes and good friends. So why should she change? I suppose she shouldn’t? I don’t know, it’s not my business, but her health is what I worry about. But then again, she never asks me to worry about it and we never ever talk about it so why should i? It’s a strange one. But some days I would love even half the confidence she has, she really does have confidence and seems so happy with who she is.

My other friend (who I’ve known since I was 4! lol!) and who has seen me at every weight I have ever been was staring at me when we went into the restaurant and took my coat off, she just looked me up and down and said “you are melting away since I last saw you!”. It was cool to hear considering she only saw me 5 weeks ago! and I have only lost maybe 2  pounds in that time but I did start jogging just after that last time I was away with my friends 5 weeks ago!! So it obviously is changing my body, and if I am honest I do notice my changing figure in the mirror and in my clothes, it’s cool!!

I do need to buy new running trainers but I think good ones will be up to €100. Which I do not have at present, I could just put them on my credit card? and one of my friends does owe my €100 so I could just spend it on that? I don’t want to spend on my card but my feet are getting blistered and I don’t want this either!! So my jogging gear has been getting too big recently. Because working out wasn’t something I ever did really I just would wear old too big t shirts and tracksuit bottoms. But now that I am into it I thought that getting proper fitting gear was important! So even though I am broke I spent €20 on gear, I bought a pair of bottoms, and 2 nice black tank tops. I was carrying the size 16 (uk) ones to the till and then took a proper look at them, and realised they would be too big! So I went back and got the size 14 instead and they fit perfect, lol! YAY!!! Bought some good comfy sports socks too. Oh, when I was on my way out I noticed a skirt on the sale rack for €2! It was really short but in a really pretty pattern and after all the comments on my last picture about my skinny legs (lol!!) I thought I would buy it! I tried it on when I got home and it is pretty but doesn’t fit very well. It kind of goes out alot and makes my backside look much bigger than it is!! Well maybe some day it will look good, not yet though!!

So that was today, have lots of time on my hands these days as not working very much, so no excuses! I have to do some grocery shopping tomorrow as I have no fruit or veg left. And I have to get to cleaning my room and the apartment because it is a mess!

So goals for tomorrow

: have a low calorie day as today was too high!

: do some yoga or stretching

: drink much more water!

: keep off the scale!

Take care everyone

I just wanted a blog to say THANK YOU!  From reading some blogs today I am getting a sense that there is something going on around buddyslim, some people aren’t happy with the advice they get and are making others feel bad for being honest. Anyway, I do not know the details, I don’t really know who is involved and I will be staying out of it, as I do with most conflict, unless it really does concern me, and if it does, I will be letting you guys know, LOL! joking. Anyway I just want to say that I couldn’t imagine better support than I get here. But it works both ways, you have to give it to get it back, same as life really.

If you write a blog saying “I ate too much and I feel sorry for myself and I want someone to love me” then I doubt you will get many responses. Don’t get me wrong, I’m sure I have written blogs like this at times, and they get little or no responses, and this (I believe) is the way it should be! You don’t need people feeding into your own self pity. Telling you, it’s ok, have more chocolate, numb the feelings, we’ll deal with the “I feel guilty for eating too much chocolate blog” tomorrow! Who is that going to help?

If you write a blog saying I messed up, I did badly, I am annoyed with myself but I am going to do better tomorrow, here are my goals and these are my plans and I will make tomorrow a better day. Then you probably will get responses telling you to go for it, good luck for tomorrow, forget about today and just work hard and you will reach your goals. The difference being that every single person on here has there own problems. We all have weight to lose and get fit, yes. We also deal with so many other issues, we all have self doubt, self confidence issues at times, suffer from depression, have messed up family lives etc etc etc. So to expect someone else who is dealing through their own issues to pick you up constantly, well that to me is unfair. No one else is here to shoulder anyone elses’s burdens, we are here to help, we are here to support and we are here to motivate.

Now, there are times that sympathy is offered and that comes with time. As i said, this blogging is about give and take. If you give advice and support to others, then they will seek out your blog and give that support back. This is how it works. Well, that’s what I’ve realised anyway ?!!? So over time, we get close on this site, we learn about eachothers lives. We may not know what eachothers voices even sound like or where we live but we know peoples husbands, childrens and pets names! We know what eachother do for a living, we know eachothers past struggles and we know eachothers present difficulties in life. So when you get to know someone like this and look forward to their blogs, then you will give sympathy when it is needed, just as you will give praise and congratulations too.

So, what I guess I’m saying is the blogging works, for me anyway and I know it does for others. There are a group of say 5-10 people that I know read every blog I write and comment on them too (you know who you are and I thank you so much for the support you give me!) and I have subscribed to all their blogs and read them all as much as I can and comment nearly every time. This is how it works. Some people give tough talking “get up off your backside and run” advice LOL! and others give hugs and understanding. Every person is different and we all have different things to offer. All I know is that I have never had as much success with weightloss as I have since being on buddyslim and I know that it is because I blog.

So I don’t know what is going on here, this blog is not an attack on anyone as I have genuinely no idea what is going on and no idea who is involved!!! But I just thought I would say my piece and thank you all for the support you give.

I jogged again today, woo woo! God I love it! although my trainers hurt my feet they are really really old and I think are too narrow for my feet So I really do need to buy new ones or jogging is not going to be fun. I cannot afford new ones….hmmm…but can I afford NOT to buy them?? lol!

Oh, and haven’t been back on the scale…2 weeks till I weigh….can I wait that long?!? lol!

have a great weekend everyone and keep up the great work

Well, here’s a picture of me playing rockband with my mates last week! I don’t really like the photo of myself and wish my face would get a little thinner, but I am impressed by my legs! They are pretty skinny (always have been I suppose!) and my stomach is looking alot flatter than before. I am still not 100% happy with how I look, will I ever be? I hope so! More work to do! and I will keep working at it!!