Maria’s quest for a healthier body!

ok, so I’m another pound down….at 200 lbs now….I’ll get under it some day…I am determined!!

So having started at 225 last August, I’m down 25 pounds now. This is turning out to be a slow journey. But I think I have come to terms with that. I do still get jealous of other peoples fast weight loss but I have to realise that that is not for me and I am not going to starve myself into losing weight so the result is I will lose a pound or two every week or two.

So I am trying to get the exercise back in gear, had bout 1hr and half/2 hour walk yesterday (had to leave my car at the garage and walk home after and walk back to get it later!). and then I went swimming.Did my 30 lengths (in about 22 minutes) so I’m happy with that. 22 mins isn’t long enough of a workout I know but I get so bored once I hit 30 lengths that I convince myself I’ve done enough and head to the sauna for 10 mins!! so maybe that will be my new challenge….making myself stay swimming for longer!

So I went and did food shopping yesterday because I had been pretty bad with eating last week as I was SO busy with work that I ate on the go alot. So I bought lots of healthy things, lots of fruit, veg and fish. I currently have a salmon fillet baking in the oven that I plan on having with some parsnip+sweet potato mash and some cabbage! mmmm! So I have healthy food in the kitchen so no excuses! I have to have a good week cause I’ve got friends coming to visit on friday and I know diet and exercise will go out the window till monday!! so I have to be as good as I can to prepare for that! I know I could say that I will take it easy when they are here, and I will definitely make healthy choices with the food and drink but there is no point pretending I’m not gonna indulge and I dont feel I should. This is the reason my weight loss is slow and if I’ve come to terms with that, then why not. I know why it happens, but I love having fun with friends so I’m not gonna let dieting get in the way!

I mentioned a dress that I bought a month or two ago in a previous blog…well…i tried it on this morning and it fits! yay! it looks pretty good if i say so myself! I might wear it out this weekend and so I’ll try and upload a photo if i do!

My car is going to cost up to 800 euro to fix, but I’m not even going to get into that at the moment. Not what I had intended to spend my savings on, but at least I have them there. The last time I was told I had to spend that much money was by a doctor a few months back and I started crying. because I just didnt have it then and it completely overwhelmed me. so at least I am in a little better of a situation financially at the moment, and well, i need my car for work so no choice!

don’t think I’ll get my exercise in today, I have been working SO much recently and I just needed to have a lie in so I thought that was more important today than going swimming. I’m working at 4 for the night and will finish tomorrow morning so I will try and go swimming tomorrow morning (this is if work goes ok tonight and i do get to sleep!)….the joys of care work!

Today is PANCAKE TUESDAY! yay! so I am having a healthy dinner now and then later on in work I think I will just make pancakes for the clients and eat a few. So I think I will stick to splenda and lemon juice and fruit. maybe a sneaky one with chocolate spread! but I will definitely be having a few!

ok, long and rambling blog…gotta got prepare lunch….so overall I am happy….25 pounds down! woo!

Mia xx

I’m really gonna have to start thinking of some better excuses for my own lack of willpower!

This week, having started with a small loss hasn’t exactly gone to plan. my goals of exercise having gone out the window. Well, kind of. I planned to go swimming and haven’t. But i have been walking the last 3 days and am feeling better because of it.

I’m not sure if i will lose any this week because of stupid time of the month. Same thing that had me in the grumpiest humour ever yesterday….seriously….I was even starting to piss myself off. Anyway, that’s life I suppose! I did have such a craving for chocolate and I haven’t had that in such a long time. So I gave in to it…..a small bar of dairy milk and a cadburys cream egg (which I don’t even like!!!). So I don’t feel like I did too badly on this and I’m glad there was a reason I craved it and I’m over it now!

The weirdest thing happened today…..I was at work and was walking around town with a client and I couldn’t stop looking at my shadow. It was weird, I just kept thinking that it couldn’t be mine. I mean, my legs were so much thinner than I thought they were. Then I caught a glimpse of myself in a shop window and I was pretty amazed. I didn’t look half as big as I used to, or even as big as I think I look. It was weird, I mean, I usually feel like I am really big and when I caught my profile., well, I wasn’t! I bought some new clothes last week and I think this is helping, cause I was still wearing my old jeans that were falling off me and I’m sure they were making me look bigger than I am! So I am now comfortably fitting into size 16 (uk)……comfortably in that they button and zip normally (no breathing in required). no belly hanging over the top, no having to wear a baggy top to hide said belly. Weird.

So yeah, I’m happy with progress…..here’s to a good rest of week and hopefully good news on Monday!

Oh and also I realised that having started at 225lbs and now I’m 201 so I have lost 10-11% of my starting weight…..wow!! seeing it like this has made me realise how well I’ve done!

Mia

…..so another 2 pounds! puts me at 201! so close to being under 200…..with a lot of hard work this week I could definitely be there by next monday….wish me luck!! I’, 24 pounds down!

I am a little annoyed it’s not more as I’ve had a good week and after 3 bad weeks I thought it might be more, I had a sneaky step on the scale on saturday and was 199…..but anyway, weigh in day is the weigh in that counts and i’m still down….

So this journey is taking it’s time but I suppose that’s the best way to be! I think I have finally gotten my head around this thing because even when I had 3 bad weeks and didn’t do anything I still didn’t put on any weight at the end of it, maintained. so that is definitely a good thing!

So hopefully i’ll have a good week and hopefully I’ll be under 200 next week…..wow! and if I get to 197 (in the next week or two!) then that is 2 stone lost….wow!! I am very proud of myself that I have done this well and need to keep reminding myself that there is no quick fix and that I am doing it the right way, healthily and slowly. It’s just hard not to want a big loss every now and again, you know?!

So goals for this week…..try and not collapse of exhaustion: I’m working everyday!! Go swimming 3 times or more: do 60 to 100 lengths over the week (I did 70 last week in 3 trips to pool). Keep making healthy choices, lots of fruit and veg. I have really upped my fruit intake this week and feel great because of it! Drink more water: really slacking on this one! Get some at home stretching/exercises done: I just walk and swim, not doing any toning exercises so going to have to start these too to get me going.

Finally goal for the week: try to stay positive. Hit a bit of a low the last few days and found it hard to pick myself back up but I did (I’m not sure how!). I’m just finding things a little tough at the moment and my self-esteem is taking a bit of a knock. But I’m trying, I’ll get through it. It’s something I’ve been dealing with for years and to be honest I think it’s something I’m always going to have to deal with so I have to figure out the best ways for me to cope.

Anyway, that’s all, here’s to a great week! Have to go to work now but I’ll try and get on and read lots of blogs in the next few days!

Mia

well, it’s been a crazy few weeks……busy partying hard!! Trip to Barcelona last weekend and London the weekend before. Had great fun but I must admit that my healthy eating didn’t exactly go to plan! lol!

So i think right now I am up 3 pounds on what I last weighed in, which isn’t too bad all things considered. I’m not going to change my ticker (cause I’m stubborn!) and we’ll see what shows up on Monday morning. I went swimming yesterday, did 20 lengths (usually do 30) and I was pretty wrecked after, my lungs didn’t enjoy it, after a few weekends of smoking while drinking and the fact I’ve got a cold (or my body is just run down from partying!!). When I learn to stop abusing my body, lol!!

So I have eaten well today, think I have to eat dinner at a clients house later (it’s impossible to say no!!). So I will try my best to not eat too much, it’ll be potatoes and some veg anyway so won’t be too bad! I plan on going swimming again after work too, so hopefully I’ll be able to do my usual 30 lengths again.

I really missed out on loads of blogs but I will try get back into reading and posting again because it always helps my motivation! I also came across an episode of Biggest Loser on Sky 2 earlier, not sure if it is the series you guys are watching at the moment or an older on, will try figure this out! so, back in focus, i think, i hope!!

i’m not even going to give out to myself and i’m not going to complain. i have fallen off the wagon (seems like i’m off the wagon more than on these days!). have had two crazy weekends and another one this weekend in Barcelona, so i will try my best during the week but realistically i am off the radar for a week or so. Sorry to the challenges i joined and ultimately failed at. oh well….i will get back to it next week, i hope, lol!

On the plus side of things my confidence is way up, i had such a fun weekend, just posted the pics on facebook and i love most of them, liking myself in photos, well that is a new one for me! and i’m loving it!! so i am not giving up and i’m not looking back..,..this is a long journey and i will try my best to get there…..hope everyone is doing well and i will be back soon,…….promise!!