Maria’s quest for a healthier body!

I have realised this over the past few months and people have always assured me that it happens them too! but my weight really does fluctuate SO much! it seems crazy! I havent eaten perfectly the last two days but I havent eaten terribly either, certainly not enough to put on pounds. I am seven pounds heavier than when I weighed in yesterday, lol! yep 7 whole pounds! which to me seems crazy, and I went swimming for 30 minutes earlier, so I havent been too lazy either!

anyway, I’m not that bothered by it and i will be putting the scale away before bed and hopefully it will stay away for a few days so im not tempted to look at it! I’m expecting my time of the month any day now so that could also be a reason why the scale is going up and i was feeling really bloated yesterday too.

So I’m not doing perfectly and I will start pointing again more accurately….i REALLY want to keep losing pounds so why do I not eat what i KNOW i need to to lose those pounds? oh who knows, it’s a question i’ve been asking myself for years! maybe someday I’ll learn the answer to this!

I hurt my back a little today and am hoping it doesn’t get too bad and stop me exercising. I was doing a course for work (Crisis Prevention and Intervention, I’m starting work in a homeless shelter soon). So in the course we were learning self defense technique and also techniques for restraining people if we needed to in the line of work. So we were practising them over and over and it was good fun, but I felt a little twinge and i did stop but then went swimming after work and it’s a little sore. hopefully a good nights sleep will help. My back isn’t great anyway and is one of the main reasons I am on buddyslim!! I really hurt it last august and was told me a doctor that I hurt it, yes, because of my work as a carer but also because i was carrying too much extra weight. it upset me at the time but gave me the wake up call i needed so when i was off work for a week and on painkillers i was searching online for diet help and found buddyslim! and im still here 6 months later! so im sure the reason my back hurt again today is because I’m still carrying too much extra weight (the only people who seemed to be complaining were me and the only other over weight person doing the course, go figure!!). So hopefully I’ll get back on track.

Anyway, long, rambling and altogether unexciting blog, but it stopped me going to the kitchen again before bed! ha ha!

Mia

so my hard work this week paid off! I moved the ticker 2 pounds down. I would have liked a little bit more but I will go with it! my weight seems to fluctuate SO much in the space of a day or two….cause i had a look at the scale saturday morning and I was 200.5!!! and then today I was 202.5/203! so it would have been great to have a4/5 pound loss, but I’ll go with what I got!

So roll on another week, gonna keep the exercise up and try not to go off the rails TOO much at the weekend cause some friends are coming to visit!

So keep on with the healthy eating!

Mia

well, i weigh in tomorrow and i am hoping for the best! I had a sneaky look at the scale on friday and it was WAY better than i expected so hopefully ive managed to get  a few pounds off. didnt have the best day of eating yesterday (i made a lasanga for a client in work and ended up having a piece, very bad, but i can’t resist food when it is in front of me!)

I have eaten well today (i am having a jd and diet coke at the minute though, lol! felt like i needed a little reward on my only day off!!). and i did a GOOD workout. Usually I drive to the swimming pool but today I walked there, woo! it was a thirty minute walk there, then I swam for thirty one minutes (trying to do an extra minute every time i go, it’ll 32 next time, lol!) did 36 lengths, then walked home again another 30 minutes. So i’m happy with that. Walked around town for a bit then doing some shopping. Met a friend, had a hot chocolate, not so great points wise!! and then went for chinese: had kingprawns and veg and noodles in soup…so good!  I’m guessing it was maybe 6 or 7 points id say. maybe a little more. so i should be under or just over 20 points for the day but with the workout that should be ok i hope.

So I will weigh in tomorrow morning and hopefully I will be able to move the ticker down a few pounds, fingers crossed!!

See you all tomorrow! Mia

….it has been a LONG time since this happened! woo! i may finally be back on track!

doing Weight watchers points at the minute, for my weight, height etc i can have 25 points per day. I am going to aim for 20 though, try and kick start the weight loss again! I ended on 20 yesterday, woo! didnt exercise though so i felt a little bad! Then today I went swimming (36 lengths in 30mins, and I pushed really hard the last 5 or 6 cause, well, cause there is a gym beside the pool and there is a big window that looks in over the pool and i am nearly sure that the guy i have a bit of a crush on was at that window doing his stretches, lol! he was telling me yesterday in work (he has no idea i like him and i am too afraid to tell him!!!!)  he had a joined a gym but i  didnt ask which one, just my luck that it would be mine!! now if ever i needed motivation to look good it would be NOT letting him see me in my swimsuit, lol! dont think he did though….im not ready for that, im gonna be so on edge now everytime i go there…so its definitely motivating!!) anyway…i went off track!! so i went swimming which would have earned me 2 bonus points and iv’e finished today on 23.5! yay! even though i had dinner at a clients house….i help a child with a disability with his homework 2 or 3 times a week and his mum rang today before work and said she insisted i have dinner there today. she always offers and i always decline because of politeness and i like cooking my own healthy food but she was so insisted today so i couldnt offend!! i tried, honest! I even told her she’s making my diet really hard and she said im making potatoes and they are healthy so i wont hear of it!  (by the way, she’s very thin, doubt she’s ever had to diet in her life!!) it was so nice of her though, but when im just getting back on track i thought it would ruin me, but had mashed potato (3 scoops, so i put down 4 pts), 4 fish fingers (4pts) and some beans (i put down 2 pts) so 10pt dinner, my usual would be 5 or 6 so not too bad and i still ended under target!

So i am quite proud of myself, im finally getting a handle on my eating again. I put my scales away in my wardrobe so hopefully ill make it a few days without getting on again! was getting a little obsessed! i also have another motivating factor in a new dress that I bought, its 16 (uk), its black and really fitted…its way too tight at minute, waaayyyy too tight but im hoping in 10 pounds time it should fit nicely! cant wait to wear it, ideally on that day when i am looking and feeling great i bump into, i dunno, my ex?! or my crush!? or well, just anybody really to make me feel great! thats bad motivation i know but if it works in my head than why not!!

Gonna keep trying hard…ill get there eventually

but i may FINALLY have the motivation I need! Stayed the same today even though I did well the last few days….still eating too much though as the scales didnt move! oh it is frustrating. AND………well my best friend and i have a weigh in page together online and we weigh in weekly…..well i was 16 pounds down when she joined me back in november. so she was at zero pounds lost when i was at 16 and now……I’m at 19.5 and she’s at 16!!!!!!! I am so annoyed with myself for slacking off and losing so little in the last few months! and she’s smaller than me, has maybe 40 pounds to lose, well only 20 something now!!! ahhhh!!

I’m not jealous at all, I am so proud of her, but it’s just made me realise how much ive been slacking off and letting myself down! SO…what am i going to do about it!!????? get my ass in gear hopefully! lets see how tomorrow goes!! have two weekends away planned in next few weeks….London 30th Jan and Barcelona 6th Feb (don’t know how I’ll afford them but im working so hard lately i feel like holidaying, lol!) so I knoe those weekends will definitely set me back cause i’ll be drinking (lots) so i HAVE to so AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE up to then….this is on…..i HAVE to kick my own ass!!! lol!

thanks for all the comments and support on my blog….really really appreciate everyones help…really busy with work and things the next few days but I will get back on soon and check in on everyone!

Thanks (sorry for ranting!!!)

so i thought I should blog when I just realised what I was doing! I am sitting on my sofa (going to work in a few hours so chilling out first, although I’m just home from a 40minute walk in the RAIN!!) and on the TV i have “Paul McKenna: I Can Make You Thin” on mute!  I haven’t actually watched it yet, all to do with positive thinking and conscious eating etc. And on my laptop in front of me I was looking through blogs here on Buddyslim while also looking at the meet the biggest loser contestant videos at the same time!!  Ok so I think I’m getting a little obsessed, lol!

Oh well, if anything helps me get into a good frame of mind then why not! Does anyone know if theres anywhere that shows the Biggest Loser episodes online? It isn’t aired over here, we don’t have NBC. and the nbc website just seems to have little videos with the intros, bonus scenes etc, tried you tube aswell but they don’t seem to show episodes! would like to be able to watch it so i can join in with the chats about it on here!

Ok, gotta go get some lunch then get ready for work! It’s my weigh in day tomorrow morning….so hopefully i will have some good news to report (fingers crossed!)

Mia

well, i did it, back to the exercise! and, as predicted, I really enjoyed it! I always really enjoy exercise (well i don’t LOVE it! but i do love how I feel after it: healthy, relaxed and proud of myself!). Went swimming, did 32 lengths in 27 minutes. I bought my month pass for the pool so I can go as much as I want for the next month, so I will try and go at least twice a week, if not three times!

My new goal is to exercise at least 5 days per week. I feel that SHOULD be enough as my job is pretty active some days too, I used to do a desk job where I would be sitting most of the day but my job now involves some sitting but usually more active than that and somedays I don’t even get a chance to sit down I’m so busy! So 5 days per week or more is the plan: 3 days of swimming (30 minute swim, I wish I could do more than this, it’s not tiredness that stops me but boredom!! maybe I’ll start adding on a minute every time and see if I can trick myself into doing longer!!) and then two walks per week, when I walk it is usually 45 mins-1 hour at a fast enough pace.

If I can just keep myself motivated I should see the scale moving. It is definitely what works for me cause I find it so hard to cut back on food (I love eating!!) and I seem to snack alot, obviously will try get this under control too. It’s a long journey….but I am determined to get there, eventually!

Not sure if I posted my goals in a blog the other day but sure here goes again if I did! I want to be 14 stone  (196 pounds) by end of jan. 13 stone 7 pounds (189 pounds) by end of February. And 13 stone (182 pounds) by the end of March. So that’s my goals for now, I’m not looking past the 180 pound mark at the moment, I’ll re evaulate when (not if!!) I get there!

Gonna keep going…..we’ll all get there eventually!

Mia

to be honest i think the title may be a bit of an overstatement!! oh well, i dont want to beat myself up for not doing great in case it sets me back!

my eating has been much better, I have just started journaling my food again today and have seen that I am eating way too much, it’s good food but the portions are too big. it’s exactly what I noticed when I first start journaling back in september and it give me the kick i needed so hopefully i will get on track again!

I went up to visit some friends on monday, i cooked us dinner of fajitas which was GOOD. not that healthy im sure but not terrible either. then we went to wagamamas for dinner on the tuesday evening, it was really nice, i always get the same thing (Moyashi Soba) which is a big bowl of ramen noodles, soup, veg and tofu…so nice! Drank way too much alcohol that night….way too much but I dont care really, Im giving it up again for a while so we’ll see how that goes. It was a very strange night out with lots of tears (good tears, but still tears!). My two best friends and I have been friends since we met in 2001. and 2008 was a particularly hard year for our friendship. i’m glad things are back on track but it still doesn’t stop the emotional conversations after a few drinks! things are tough but everything will ok.

anyway, so i drank too much meaning i did not eat the healthiest yesterday! ooops! I worked a night shift last night and finished up this morning and went grocery shopping. bought lots of healthy foods and maybe a few too many snacks. healthy options snacks though! I do find snacking really hard and snacking on the wrong things is my downfall! I can’t cut out snacks altogether because I dont have the willpower! but also because I find myself feeling faint and get headaches if i dont eat every few hours. I was worried this might be diabetes related but i got my blood sugars and everything checked out a few months ago and it was all find, thank god! so i pick low fat snacks that shouldn’t damage the diet! going to start eating more fruit too, I eat lots of veg but not enough fruit so i’ll try harder! As for exercise I have been so busy lately that I haven’t had time! But i will get back to swimming this weekend and I will go for a walk as soon as I have a spare hour!

so things are going ok, im getting my head back into focus so hopefully i will start to see the scale moving downwards again sooon!

Mia

right so i put up the ticker…it had to be done, i couldnt kid myself any longer!! lol!

So i had gotten up as far as 208.5 lbs over christmas and my last recorded weigh in was 203, but since new years (when I got back on track!) I have gotten down to 205 again, so I am happy with that! I am now the same weight as I was at the beginning of december so it seems a bit like a wasted month but it’s done now and complaining won’t change it!

But january is going to be different (positive mental attitude, lol!) and I will lose more pounds…my goal is to be 14 stone (196 lbs) by end of january, so thats 9 pounds, i think it is do able and i am going to try my best! i will get under 200 this month…..!!!

Mia

so I am grabbing on to everything that worked for me when I dropped the pounds in the last few months (forgetting about the last weeks because that was a haze of alcohol and chocolate…mmmmm!). So i have started writing down what I eat, snacks and all! Eating LOTS of veg again, i hid the scales in my wardrobe and they WILL only come out on a monday morning (i hope!) and most importantly for me I got up off my lazy ass and went for a walk! lol! only did 40 mins (I had been doing at least an hour on my walks a while back) but I wanted to ease myself back in cause I feel like i am getting a cold (am trying to get rid of it before it starts by taking uniflu!) and it was cold out and I was walking along the beach so I didn’t want to shock my body too much! ha! and i am going to work at 4pm till 12 tomorrow afternoon (sleepover shift!) and then working 4pm till 11pm tomorrow evening. I was offered the extra shift tomorrow so I decided to take it, it’s double pay cause it’s sunday so even though I will be tired it will be worth it on pay day!! and also I am planning on taking a day off Monday, I have a review doctors appointment but for the life of me have no idea what time it’s at (oooops!) and i cant find the letter and the place isnt open til monday morning! oooopppss! well, i’ll just have to ring at 9am and hope i wasnt supposed to be there at 9am….maybe its at 10? i really cant remember!

Anyway, Im rambling….I am going to start blogging alot again because it definetly helped me not snack before and so if I know what works for me then I should definitely do it, right?! New Year is going well so far….

no doubt I will be blogging again soon!

Mia x