Maria’s quest for a healthier body!

and i must admit i havent really been doing much on the healthy eating and exercise thing. what can i say, it’s party season!! I didnt weigh in last week (well I weighed at home and was up 2 pounds and I’m too stubborn to change my weight ticker!). It wasn’t at all surprising as i had been drinking and eating for 4 days before weigh in….ooops!

So I had my work christmas party last night, lots of food and lots of drink, oh well! i am feeling pretty hungover right, but havent eaten too much hangover food so thats good! I am going to go out for a walk later (the only thing I will have done today!!) and i am going to walk or swim tomorrow so maybe weigh in will be ok again on monday. I am nearly back to 204 so I might be down a pound or two on monday, im not too hopeful though! So im not going to be under 200 for christmas, oh well! i didnt try at all so i dont deserve it to be honest! Realistically the festive season is going to continue in the same way so i dont expect to drop any more pounds! but i will definitely get back into it in the new year (i know this sounds like a cop out, which it is, but at least im realistic!!)

Im looking forward to a few days off and being at home with my family and relaxing….im pretty wrecked and stressed out to be honest. looking forward to a break! I got a little worried last weekend as I was really low and it worries me when my mood gets that down. Its something ive always stuggled with (I wouldnt call it depression, i think, i dont really know, ive never spoken to anyone about it). But i just get so hard on myself at times and upset and was just feeling really bad about myself. But im feeling a bit better now and I think I have put it down to my drinking too much (which lets face it, is never good my moods!!) and i am due my period and always tend to get a little down. This episode seemed more serious than a little down which is what worried me but Im feeling more optimistic now. A few days home with my family should help (hopefully!!).

A girl I new at school died during the week, she was 25 and died of organ failure. She had been anorexic or bulimic for probably 8 years. her poor body obviously couldnt handle the abuse anymore. its very sad, and quite shocking. Shows you how important it is to get healthy eating under control because our bodies can’t cope with the stress of eating disorders. Made me think anyway.

So ill be back on monday and maybe will be down a pound or two but ill be back on track in the new year if not, my main aim for the next week or two is to keep up with the exercise and I should get on ok.

Mia

seems to be at a slow and steady pace (1 to 2 pounds per week) but isn’t that exactly the rate it should be?? i think so! which is cool, obviously I would love to see the pounds fall away quicker but I suppose they didnt go on overnight so they’re not going to come off that way either!

I am so close to mini goal and so close to being under 200!!!!for the first time in….well i actually dont know how long!! maybe 3 years??? not sure!

I hope i do make it be christmas, i am going to have to really get my exercise in cause have a fun weekend with friends this weekend (ie drinking and partying!!) and I have my work xmas party next weekend (ie more drinking and partying!!) which Im sure will curb the weightloss a little, but hopefully if i get my exercise in ill see a few pounds down by Xmas….and then hopefully keep them off over xmas which is the hard part!!

gotta run….late for work!!

it has been a tough 24 hours!! (for those who handed seen my previous blogs, Im doing a 24 hour fast for charity called Concern).

I have never went so long without food, I would say I’ve never been more than 8 or 10 hours with food and that’s when I’m sleeping!! So I started at 1.30pm yesterday (after lunch) to 1.30pm today (15 mins to go!). and all I’ve had in that time is some orange juice and water (not enough….). I found it ok yesterday cause i was working and then online and then went to the cinema to distract myself (saw Changeling, thought it was great!). Why did I chose the one place where it is EXPECTED that people will eat food, and the smell of popcorn drove my crazy, and all i could hear was the rustling of popcorn…but I got through it! slept fine last night but I must admit from getting up this morning till now has been pretty tough, hunger pangs and all!

So hopefully I dont BINGE now!! I will be having my dinner and then heading to work……the fast has really made me think, a) about others who have to go through this purely because they cannot afford food, and its not just for 24 hours, its 48hours, a week etc and also b) about my own relationship with food, how I feel the need to eat very often and feel I am hungry after a few hours when its probably just thirst!

So i’m off to make some food…..let’s hope the scale on Monday reflects this 24 hours in some way, although even if it does it’s definetly something I won’t be doing every week! yearly and for charity is the only way I’ll be starving myself!

Mia

how frustrating!! I ate SO much today! and not good food either, oh i am annoyed with myself………

the one good thing I can say about today is that I went swimming so hopefully i counteracted some of that box of salt and vinegar pringles!! oh, i dunno!!

roll on tomorrow….a healthy days eating at work and then kicking off my 24 hour fast in the evening…..fun times!

and in a good way (down not up!). Another 2 pounds which gives me a total of 20! it feels like its taken me a long time to get here but in another way I feel like its only been a few weeks! (it has, actually, been just under 4 months!). So as I mentioned in my last blog I would love to be 197 by Christmas but with my weight loss being an average of 1.5 pounds a week at the minute I think I won’t get there, but I can try and to be honest to get out of the 200s would be great!!

I’m not really sure how I am still losing the pounds (if anyone read my last blog entitled “the best chocolate I’ve ever tasted!!!…..”they’ll see I’m not exactly following the rules!). But I think that the healthy eating has become kind of second nature to me now, I’m not really doing the weight watchers points at the minute (i should be but I’m too lazy to write them down!!) I will try get back to that soon, but I do seem to be making healthy choices (apart from the wine and the chips at 3am, ha ha!) but overall it seems to be working out. It must be the exercise that’s doing it cause I was doing little to none before and now between swimming and walking im doing exercise at least 3 days a week and I really enjoy it (who knew!?). Also I am eating lots of veg (I always did, but more frequently now) and am trying to eat more fruit aswell. I also did my grocery shopping today and got so much fruit and veg and I was reading labels all over the shop! Its hard to figure out what to buy because it has to be cheap (stupid recession) and healthy (stupid extra pounds). But I think I made good choices, have lots of food in the cupboards and should be able to eat healthy for the week!

I am doing a 24 hour fast on Thursday (ahhh!). It’s for a charity called Concern and it’s a really big thing here, loads of people do it to raise money to help alleviate poverty and starvation in developing countries. So I’ve never actually done it before and i think I’m going to find it HARD! lol! but it is for a good cause so hopefully that will keep me going! might help the weight loss too (don’t worry, I won’t be doing it every week!), probably not as I’ll be so hungry and binge after!! It definitely makes me think that I really am so lucky in life, I’ve never gone hungry and I’ve never been homeless and, well, I could continue but you get the point…..life is good. and too short for worrying unneccessarily………i have to live it to the full!

I gotta go have some soup I made earlier, I think it’s no WW points, can’t remember what I put in….think it was onions, leeks, carrots, parsnip, tomatoes, stock,…….so yeah, that should be pretty much point free!

Another week ahead and hopefully another pound or two down next monday….slow and steady is the way to go!

Mia