Maria’s quest for a healthier body!

ok, so this might not come as a surprise to everyone else but I can’t believe it!! I haven’t really counted calories before so I thought it give it ago just after eating my breakfast. I’ve always used WW points before or just kidded myself that I can eat lots as long as its good foods like fruit veg beans pulses etc. But there is a reason I am 70 pounds overweight and portion sizes seem to be the problem!!

So I had to get up at 7am to go to work this morning so was too tired to eat before I went, grabbed 3 salt free rice cakes in work about 8am (75 cals) and then finished work at 10am (I work a split shift so I have to leave for work again at 3pm). So anyway, got home at 10 and had my actual breakfast…..thinking I am a very healthy eater (or kidding myself more like!!) I had a breakfast cereal with fat free milk (about 200 cals), 2 small slices of brown soda bread (115 cals each……ouch!! so 230 cals), a banana (150 cals!) and a small glass of ready made innocent smoothie, carrot and mango flavour (150 cals!!).

So there you go, that adds up to 805 calories and its only 10.30am!!!! I can’t believe it, I finally am beginning to realise why I am so overweight because although I eat healthy I eat FAR too much. I always knew I ate too much but had no idea to this extent.

Ok so the results? eh well, I’m going to go for a swim soon!! I need to make myself feel better somehow! But also, I’m going to try and not panic too much because it was frustrating me that I wasn’t losing but now I know why, I eat too much! So all I can do is move forward with this. And start planning my meals and my calorie intake alot better! and hopefully the scales will start moving.

On a not so happy note and one that I can’t get into much, I work as a care worker with people with disabilities and work part-time in a place, I was in last night for the first time in a month and one of the clients died two weeks ago. It was completely unexpected and they don’t know why yet. I was so shocked and to be honest more than a little annoyed that nobody had thought to tell me. I haven’t been working there very long but I felt I had a bond with this person and I didn’t even know he had passed away so couldn’t get to say goodbye or anything. So I am quite upset about that but all I can do is learn from it and learn that life is way too fricken short sometimes and we have to make the most of it while we are here. Something I know my client definitely did. Sorry for laying this out on my blog but I just needed to write down my thoughts on this one to help me move on. Thanks

Mia

well I don’t know what’s come over me blogging twice in one day, my phone is broken so I can’t make any calls so maybe I’m just blogging cause I can’t ring any friends for a chat!!!

But anyway, I’m just home from a walk, yay! First walk in a week and I did an hour and 15 minutes so I’m pretty wrecked! But so glad I got up off my backside and went, I had forgotten how much it clears my head and how great you feel getting some fresh air!! So although my head is still pretty bad with the flu I think the fresh air can only have helped.

Have lots of paper work to do and letters to write for work this evening so that will keep me busy and have a busy day ahead tomorrow but I read lots (and lots!) of other people’s blogs today so they’ve given me some great motivation! And I have in mind that I would LOVE to get to my mini goal by next saturday, it will mean losing 4 pounds which I think is definitely possible with plenty exercise and healthy eating because I haven’t lost in a few weeks so if I work hard it should come off! so hopefully I’ll be happy with my progress during the week and my results next saturday!

Bye again, I think blogging is becoming my new hobby, I’m going to have to find something a little more interesting to put in them so!! 

Mia

well, pound up this week but to be honest i’m not at all surprised and am just glad it’s not more! i didn’t exercise all week because i’ve been feeling so bad and my eating has been far from great. but i’m not disappointed because i’ts given me the motivation that i am on track to losing some weight so it would be very foolish of me to throw it all away!!

also this week i’ve got some really great compliments. a friend who hadn’t seen me in a few weeks and aunt who hasn’t seen me in probably 6 months or a year, both said i looked like i had lost loads of weight!! when i said i hadn’t, just 7 pounds they were shocked! so the exercise that i have been doing (apart from this week!!)  must have made an impact, so that was great to hear! because normally i would have to lose alot more than that for it to be noticeable. so i’m happy with that. I did take body measurements a few weeks ago and thought about doing them today to see if i had lost inches even though i hadn’t lost pounds but i decided against it cause i’ve eaten my dinner (some baked potato, steamed cauliflower and brocoli, and some stir fry! i’m pretty much vegetarian and i LOVE vegetables, it’s just a pity that i eat too much in my portions!) and i feel a little bloated so my measurements might not be great! But i’ll save that for another few weeks because it does take a long time for them to change so theres no point doing it too often.

So i’m still not feeling 100% and am so so busy these days and worrying alot about money as I have to bring my car to the garage tomorrow and my phone is broken so hopefully i dont have to buy a new phone because I cant afford to!! I am definitely going to get some exercise in today, I’ll go out for a walk later, I want to go swimming but I don’t think the staff there would think it very hygienic if i keep stopping because my nose is running and i need to cough!! so i’ll wait another few days before going back.

So my goals for the next week are to start back on my exercising, to eat healthy, try and get to grips with portion sizes ansdraining myself to stop eating when I’m full.

I’m still optimistic and think i’m on the right track to losing weight, i am determined to see some good results next week…..wish me luck!!!

Mia

well I know I am not supposed to come on my blog and moan that I am not doing very well this week cause I am the only person that can do this weight loss thing for myself etc etc.

But I’m feeling sorry for myself!! I haven’t exercised all week because I have a bad cold and can’t stop coughing and my head is completely blocked up and I am exhausted! And I know I need to just have a few days in bed to sleep it off but I can’t afford to do that cause I have to go to work cause if I dont go to work I don’t get paid and I can only take sick leave with a doctors cert which will cost 60euro to see a doctor to get one! Anyway, complaining over…I just know I won’t have lost weight when I weigh in this saturday I may even have put on a few pounds……oh well…I’ll keep going!!!

Sorry for the rant, I’m off to buy some medicine before going to work!

well, I fell again! I went away for the weekend and I didn’t stop eating or drinking all weekend! It was so much fun! I fell pretty bad now though, I have a flu (it could be a flu or it could be my body telling me it’s broken and to stop treating it so badly!!).

So i never weighed in last week, will “I forgot” be accepted as an excuse???! suppose not, it’s not true anyway! I just can’t seem to get totally committed to this healthy regime cause although I feel much better when I’m eating better and exercising, I also love having fun and partying with my friends, although the older I’m getting the more my body can’t handle it! I have constant headaches (also stress related with my job I think), I have worse acne than I’ve ever had and I am so tired! So I am going to have to figure this one out, which is more important to me…….partying or feeling good about myself?!? And I know the answer definitely is feeling better about myself, loosing weight, gaining some self esteem, stop relying on alcohol for confidence etc etc etc.

So, I’m not disappeared from here, going to get back into it, I promise!! That is the best thing I’ve gained from buddyslim, when I give up I give up but then knowing that there are lots of people here that are still expecting me to participate, well it makes me get up off my lazy ass again and keep trying!!

So wish me luck, I’ll weigh in this saturday and hopefully it will be good news! Also my computer has been broken for a few weeks so I haven’t been able to get on here that often but i just got a new charger in the post from ebay so hopefully it works and I’ll be back on the internet again so I’ll have no excuse!

well, down a pound this week. I would have liked a little more cause I’ve been swimming and walking this week but I’ll take the pound anyway! At least I haven’t went up since I started and overall I have lost 8 lbs in one month so thats an average of 2 a week which is the ideal loss I suppose!
So this week I’m going to keep up with the exercise and cut down on portion sizes cause although I’m eating healthily I still think I’m eating too much. I am going away for the weekend next weekend so I might not get a chance to weigh in, but I’ll see what’s happening and I might try weigh in thursday or friday if I think I won’t manage it on Saturday.
Overall, I’m feeling much better since starting the healthier eating and the exercise feels great so I’m definetly going to keep that up!
Might go for a swim this afternoon before work too!
Mia

Well, I maintained this week which I am a little disappointed about but when I think about the crazy two weeks I’ve had and that I missed last week’s weigh in I’m just glad that I didn’t put on anything!! I probably had, but I did a lot of exercise this week s probably got it off again just in time for weigh in!
Anyway, so all i can do is try harder next week and hope for the best!! I don’t think I really deserved to lose this week anyway, I didn’t push myself as hard as I should have!
anyway, I’ll be back i a few days and hopefully things will be going well!

ok, so I bought a tape measure and I’m going to go home now and take my measurements, legs arms waist etc and this might help keep me motivated if I see myself losing inches on those weeks that I don’t lose pounds. I have no idea what waist measurement I am or anything, so this could be a very depressing exercise! but, oh well, have to get real with myself!!

so what can I say!! I’ve never strayed so far from a diet in my life but to be honest I knew it was going to happen and I dont regret it happening and life is too short to beat myself up about it so whats done is done and  today is  a new day. (or maybe tomorrow, Im still very tired today!)

So I was at a music festival for four days and it was crazy and I drank alot and I had lots of fun and I ate and ate and ate!!!! I am NOT going to weigh myself untill heartbreaker weigh in day on saturday. I missed the last one (I was probably drinking beer and eating nachos at the time, or pie, or, well, you get my point). So I am way too afraid to weigh in and after losing 7 pounds in two weeks Id be afraid to weigh in, in case it completely demotivates me as I may have put it back on and more (yes, 7 pounds in 4 days, I would not be surprised!!). So I am going to pretend it never happend (although I had a great weekend with my friends!) and just get back to what I was doing recently that led to the pounds coming off and get back to the exercise because I was really starting to enjoy it and was feeling better than I have done in a long time!

I’m happy I went off the diet so badly (because I think I wouldn’t have had such a fun weekend if i had been worrying about it and my friends would probably have gotten annoyed with me if I couldnt join in with the fun!!) and having gone off the rails and all I want to do is jump straight back on them, well thats a good thing. In the past I would probably have gotten so down on myself, decided I wasnt worth the effort, kept eating, been too embarassed to log back on here and admit to what I’d done! I don’t care though, as I said, life is too short…so wish me luck, I’m back on the healthy eating track and hopefully will keep losing weight and getting in shape!

Take care and I’ll be back on Saturday with the news…….

Mia